Post by Deleted on Oct 23, 2018 0:42:24 GMT
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Cinderfeather
Age: 40 moons| Tags:
Someday you’ll know, that nature is so
Cinderfeather sighed heavily as she stood outside of the nursery, head tilted upwards at the sky. The permanent queen had once again lost a kit, although this time she had somewhat been prepared for it. She knew that Petalkit would most likely die early- she could barely defend herself after all- but it still hurt that it was so soon. ‘Well, at least she’s with her mother...’ she thought before she sighed again and looked down at her paws. She felt horrible about it, but she was growing numb to the pain. She had lost her best friend, Blizzardblossom, her second born son, Ryekit, her first born son, Stormkit, and now one of her foster kits, Petalkit.
Shaking her head, the gray and white patched she cat pushed herself to her paws and walked over to the fresh kill pile, knowing that she had to eat despite not being hungry. It was horrible that she was so used to grief, but there was nothing she could do. Cats would always die giving birth, kits would always wander away and be snatched by a fox, kits would always be prey for hawks, and kits would always escape camp. It was just how life was.
Still, Cinderfeather couldn’t help but wish that she could raise just one litter where all the kits made it to their apprenticeship unscathed, and while she did feel guilty when she thought like this, she wanted to have a second litter. She wanted to do better with them. She wanted them to grow up in a loving family. ‘I bet Oaktalon would be the kind of dad who spends every free second he has in the nursery...’ she thought as she bent down and picked up a scrawny mouse. She took a few steps away before she froze.
‘Where in the world did that thought come from?!’ She thought as a shocked expression darted across her face. She could feel her ears start to heat up slightly as she realized that she had been thinking of Oaktalon as a father- right after she had been thinking about how much she’d love to raise a litter with a tom she loved no less! ‘Calm down, Cinderfeather. He’s the tom that you’re closest with, so it would make sense for your mind to go to him. It means nothing. It’s just an innocent thought!’
Cinderfeather shook her head as she leaned down to take a bite of what could barely be classified as prey, but she froze as a certain voice hit her ears. She looked up, and her eyes fell upon Oaktalon. He was obviously doing something, probably something relating to being deputy, so she wasn’t going to go bother him. However, she did sigh softly and smile softly at him. While it wasn’t exactly a love struck look, if one looked close enough, they would be able to tell that the permanent queen was rather fond of the deputy.
Shaking her head, the gray and white patched she cat pushed herself to her paws and walked over to the fresh kill pile, knowing that she had to eat despite not being hungry. It was horrible that she was so used to grief, but there was nothing she could do. Cats would always die giving birth, kits would always wander away and be snatched by a fox, kits would always be prey for hawks, and kits would always escape camp. It was just how life was.
Still, Cinderfeather couldn’t help but wish that she could raise just one litter where all the kits made it to their apprenticeship unscathed, and while she did feel guilty when she thought like this, she wanted to have a second litter. She wanted to do better with them. She wanted them to grow up in a loving family. ‘I bet Oaktalon would be the kind of dad who spends every free second he has in the nursery...’ she thought as she bent down and picked up a scrawny mouse. She took a few steps away before she froze.
‘Where in the world did that thought come from?!’ She thought as a shocked expression darted across her face. She could feel her ears start to heat up slightly as she realized that she had been thinking of Oaktalon as a father- right after she had been thinking about how much she’d love to raise a litter with a tom she loved no less! ‘Calm down, Cinderfeather. He’s the tom that you’re closest with, so it would make sense for your mind to go to him. It means nothing. It’s just an innocent thought!’
Cinderfeather shook her head as she leaned down to take a bite of what could barely be classified as prey, but she froze as a certain voice hit her ears. She looked up, and her eyes fell upon Oaktalon. He was obviously doing something, probably something relating to being deputy, so she wasn’t going to go bother him. However, she did sigh softly and smile softly at him. While it wasn’t exactly a love struck look, if one looked close enough, they would be able to tell that the permanent queen was rather fond of the deputy.
word count: 500 words | notes: please throw cats at her! You can either bring up the death of the foster kit of the fact that Oak and Cinder have been talking quite a bit. Also- please try to reach at least 300 words!
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