Post by trevni on Sept 2, 2018 21:05:23 GMT
oaktalon
@edda
well, i believe this world is burning to the ground
His paws lingered hesitantly outside of the medicine den, as though frozen there by the snow that chilled them.
This… is stupid. Surely he has better things to do than listen to my ‘problems’, right? Oaktalon was a cat that had never been particularly hesitant or cautious. On more than one occasion, his quick decisions and misjudgments had led to comical or catastrophic failures during his apprenticeship. He had always been the impulsive, honest sort, and had even begun to earn a name in Ravenclan as a cat who forged his own path, even if it was difficult at times.
After living in Willowclan under Willowstar’s rule for so long, he wasn’t even sure if he could call himself the same cat. Bitterly, he recalled the many times he’d had been forced to bow to the queen’s decisions, even when he was staunchly against them. In Ravenclan, such thoughts were normal – a cat could speak their mind without fear of punishment or retribution, however radical their thoughts might have been.
In Willowclan? It was dangerous to let your mouth speak faster than your mind. Even though he’d adapted to survive, Oaktalon hated the way his sister had so effectively tied his paws. Being deputy in this place means nothing – I have no say in shaping how this Clan works, save for the patrols that go out each day.
He hated it, but it wasn’t the only thing that’d left him on edge as of late. He was all too aware of Willowstar’s recent announcements – even now, her heir was being trained to one day take over Willowclan. The next leader will be Falconpaw, if he does what his mother wants him to. Not me.
.. Unless I can make things change.
It was unfair to have ill will towards Falconpaw – the young tom seemed level-headed and couldn’t help the family he’d been born to, after all. Oaktalon tried to brush the resentment he felt aside. Ashcloud’s heir had been selected as well, and that left Oaktalon as the only cat without an announced heir. If Willowstar’s expecting me to select one of her kits, she has another thing coming. None of the kits had caught his eye – even if they had, he shuddered at the thought of Willowstar’s own kits having a monopoly on the power within Willowclan.
No… If I have to pick a heir, it will be one of my own kits – or perhaps Ashcloud’s. But…
He frowned, well aware of the implications. Willowstar’s kits still had an unknown father – something he wouldn’t let the Clan forget. And he had kits as well, though he numbly reminded himself that they’d never be his in name. He could have no part in their lives, for every cat’s sake.
I could pick a pretty or powerful she-cat – one who’d say yes just for the status, rather than because of any actual care. That was the safe bet – and the one that left a sour taste in his mouth. His sister might have been capable of such callous, calculated relations, but he certainly was not.
He’d been looking, certainly – his memory flashed back to times he’d spent with his Clanmates as of late. And though certain feelings were becoming… curious, the dark tabby still had to think things through. There’s certainly cats I might feel something for… but how do I know who’s truly the right one? Or if she would even feel the same way?
Perhaps Ashcloud, with his usual wisdom, would have answers. Steeling himself for an inevitably awkward conversation, Oaktalon entered the medicine den, eyes scanning the depths. He made out the peacefully-sleeping forms of Wolfjaw and Redwater – cats who had been seriously injured during the fox assault, he remembered – in a far corner, and made a not to try his best not to disturb them.
”Ashcloud?” His voice was a quiet echo as he shifted to scan the area for his brother. ”… Are you busy? I’d like to talk, if you aren’t.”
This… is stupid. Surely he has better things to do than listen to my ‘problems’, right? Oaktalon was a cat that had never been particularly hesitant or cautious. On more than one occasion, his quick decisions and misjudgments had led to comical or catastrophic failures during his apprenticeship. He had always been the impulsive, honest sort, and had even begun to earn a name in Ravenclan as a cat who forged his own path, even if it was difficult at times.
After living in Willowclan under Willowstar’s rule for so long, he wasn’t even sure if he could call himself the same cat. Bitterly, he recalled the many times he’d had been forced to bow to the queen’s decisions, even when he was staunchly against them. In Ravenclan, such thoughts were normal – a cat could speak their mind without fear of punishment or retribution, however radical their thoughts might have been.
In Willowclan? It was dangerous to let your mouth speak faster than your mind. Even though he’d adapted to survive, Oaktalon hated the way his sister had so effectively tied his paws. Being deputy in this place means nothing – I have no say in shaping how this Clan works, save for the patrols that go out each day.
He hated it, but it wasn’t the only thing that’d left him on edge as of late. He was all too aware of Willowstar’s recent announcements – even now, her heir was being trained to one day take over Willowclan. The next leader will be Falconpaw, if he does what his mother wants him to. Not me.
.. Unless I can make things change.
It was unfair to have ill will towards Falconpaw – the young tom seemed level-headed and couldn’t help the family he’d been born to, after all. Oaktalon tried to brush the resentment he felt aside. Ashcloud’s heir had been selected as well, and that left Oaktalon as the only cat without an announced heir. If Willowstar’s expecting me to select one of her kits, she has another thing coming. None of the kits had caught his eye – even if they had, he shuddered at the thought of Willowstar’s own kits having a monopoly on the power within Willowclan.
No… If I have to pick a heir, it will be one of my own kits – or perhaps Ashcloud’s. But…
He frowned, well aware of the implications. Willowstar’s kits still had an unknown father – something he wouldn’t let the Clan forget. And he had kits as well, though he numbly reminded himself that they’d never be his in name. He could have no part in their lives, for every cat’s sake.
I could pick a pretty or powerful she-cat – one who’d say yes just for the status, rather than because of any actual care. That was the safe bet – and the one that left a sour taste in his mouth. His sister might have been capable of such callous, calculated relations, but he certainly was not.
He’d been looking, certainly – his memory flashed back to times he’d spent with his Clanmates as of late. And though certain feelings were becoming… curious, the dark tabby still had to think things through. There’s certainly cats I might feel something for… but how do I know who’s truly the right one? Or if she would even feel the same way?
Perhaps Ashcloud, with his usual wisdom, would have answers. Steeling himself for an inevitably awkward conversation, Oaktalon entered the medicine den, eyes scanning the depths. He made out the peacefully-sleeping forms of Wolfjaw and Redwater – cats who had been seriously injured during the fox assault, he remembered – in a far corner, and made a not to try his best not to disturb them.
”Ashcloud?” His voice was a quiet echo as he shifted to scan the area for his brother. ”… Are you busy? I’d like to talk, if you aren’t.”
awkward oakboy for ya
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